Last time, I shared the story of God restoring Adam and Eve and preparing them for the new life they had brought about. I want to continue reflecting on this subject of restoration by sharing one of my favorite accounts from the New Testament.
Peter was one of Jesus’ closest disciples. Although he could be impulsive, and sometimes reacted without thoroughly thinking things through, he was fiercely loyal to Jesus. In light of this, he understandably took offense to Jesus’ claim that he would deny Him three times on the night in which He was arrested (John 13:36-38). So, when the time came, which side of Peter won out, his fierce loyalty or his impulsive nature?
Now the slaves and the officers were standing there, having made a charcoal fire, for it was cold and they were warming themselves; and Peter was also with them, standing and warming himself….Now Simon Peter was standing and warming himself. So they said to him, “You are not also one of His disciples, are you?” He denied it, and said, “I am not." One of the slaves of the high priest, being a relative of the one whose ear Peter cut off, said, "Did I not see you in the garden with Him?” Peter then denied it again, and immediately a rooster crowed (John 18:18, 25-27, NASU).
I empathize with Peter when I read this account. I know, from all the other accounts of Peter in Scripture, that His heart was in the right place. However, he found himself faced with the same challenge each of us faces today: will we trust God with our very lives. There can be no doubt that Peter feared for his life in that moment. His impulsive nature told him to go into self-preservation mode. Who could blame him? The Savior he had been following for the past three years didn’t look like He could even save Himself from the leaders of His day.
The anguish Peter must have felt from that moment on had to be excruciating. How could he move beyond this enormous failure? What would his life be about now? Not knowing what to do, Peter returned to what he had always done. He went back to the familiar – fishing. It is at this point that God’s movement and restoration in Peter’s life became visible again.
After these things Jesus manifested Himself again to the disciples at the Sea of Tiberias, and He manifested Himself in this way. Simon Peter, and Thomas called Didymus, and Nathanael of Cana in Galilee, and the sons of Zebedee, and two others of His disciples were together. Simon Peter said to them, “I am going fishing.” They said to him, “We will also come with you.” They went out and got into the boat; and that night they caught nothing.
But when the day was now breaking, Jesus stood on the beach; yet the disciples did not know that it was Jesus. So Jesus said to them, “Children, you do not have any fish, do you?” They answered Him, “No.” And He said to them, “Cast the net on the right-hand side of the boat and you will find a catch.” So they cast, and then they were not able to haul it in because of the great number of fish. Therefore that disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It is the Lord.” So when Simon Peter heard that it was the Lord, he put his outer garment on (for he was stripped for work), and threw himself into the sea. But the other disciples came in the little boat, for they were not far from the land, but about one hundred yards away, dragging the net full of fish.
So when they got out on the land, they saw a charcoal fire already laid and fish placed on it, and bread. Jesus said to them, “Bring some of the fish which you have now caught” (John 21:1-9, NASU).
Now I need to state that I am not a believer in coincidence when it comes to the things of God. So, I don’t believe it is a coincidence that John records that Jesus had started a charcoal fire. I’m certain that when Peter came ashore and saw the fire, his mind was immediately taken back to the charcoal fire he stood around at the moment of his greatest failure. It must have felt like someone was twisting the dagger that had pierced his heart when he denied his Savior. All that he had hoped to forget and put behind him, came rushing back like a flood.
There must have been some apprehension on Peter’s part as he approached the fire and Jesus. How was Jesus going to respond? What penalty was awaiting him for his denial? What kind of relationship would he have with Jesus going forward? Will he ever experience relief from his feelings of guilt? The feelings he felt, and the questions racing through his mind, are all too familiar to me. They might be to you as well. Can you recall times where you were brought face to face with the failures of your past, especially those where you felt that you failed God? If so, take heart and read on.
The breakfast that followed must have been full of anxiety and tension as he awaited Jesus’ response. But then, Jesus does something wonderful and amazing. Around that charcoal fire Jesus gives Peter the opportunity to show his heart. He allows Peter a chance to respond to Him the way he wished he would have initially.
So when they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me more than these?” He said to Him, “Yes, Lord; You know that I love You.” He said to him, “Tend My lambs.” He said to him again a second time, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me?” He said to Him, “Yes, Lord; You know that I love You.” He said to him, “Shepherd My sheep.” He said to him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me?” Peter was grieved because He said to him the third time, “Do you love Me?” And he said to Him, “Lord, You know all things; You know that I love You.” Jesus said to him, “Tend My sheep” (John 21:15-17, NASU).
You see, Jesus knew Peter’s heart. Jesus knew that it was not Peter’s desire or intention to fail. So, with gentleness, He looked beyond Peter’s failure and helped him to see who he really was. In Peter’s mind, he was a failure. When push came to shove, he crumbled. However, In Jesus’ eyes, Peter was a rock; a rock solid enough for Jesus to build His Church upon (Matt. 16:18). Peter was not the sum of his failures.
Maybe that is the reminder you need to hear today. You are not the sum of your failures. God knows your heart and He stands ready to redeem you from your failures. But, just like with Peter, He is not content to leave you there. His desire is to use you in new and wonderful ways for the advancement of His Kingdom. Today is a new day, full of amazing possibilities! Meet Jesus at the charcoal fires of your life and experience the empowering restoration of His grace and mercy.